Since the talk with the gynecologist, the knot twisting my heart has been loosen gradually. Besides consulting my problems of menstrual irregularity, she was more like counseling my inner conflicts. It is coincidence that her son who ever studied in my school shared the same burden like me. She was astonished at the dark side of campus. Unhappy and stressful teachers hardly inspire students. As a wise preacher, she led me to reflect my mental condition which is influenced by the outside world due to the lack of faith. Actually, I have a lot more to pay attention to. She is a Christian, taking part in meaningful activities. There is still sky limit for me to enlighten myself and others to become better self. Accompanying with the children with cerebral palsy in the marathon, the negative emotion faded away to certain degree. Thanks to the soothing talk, it dawned on me that I can take the control back to do the meaningful things for myself and students.
Miraculously, my reunion with Rosie, my traveling mate and wedding stylist swept the confusing clouds lingering on my mind away. We share the similar minds which into psychology, philosophy, soul and life. She has followed her heart and took a bold leap to transfer to the filed she would fully engage in. This time, she is preparing for the Traditional Chinese Physician. Steve Jobs' "Looking back, he connected the dots together." happened to her. I am so happy for her and inspired by her. Being sick of the hypocrite culture, Rosie told me that I could leave them alone. Thanks to the dark side, it reflects the bright side. It is the law of nature, and in this way, it keep a balance of dynamic world. Somehow, I feel much more relieved. Yes, the wisdom from ancient Chinese people, and the admirable psychologist, Jung.
The third mentor is in TYSH. It's blessed that the last promise land in TYSH offered me a chance to find the joy back as a teacher. Compared to the mechanical spelling and grammar, I feel much more empowered when leading students on the road of life education. 玉青老師 has indeed facilitated me a platform to display what I have passion for. It is time to be in pursuit of my calling. I feel grateful that I am able to be on the way to my true self.
